Hearing the Voice of God in the Music of the Spheres

by Margie Haack

Little girl with crocheted blankie.

Where do we turn when our safety blankets fail? (cc image courtesy photosavvy via flickr)

Our three-year-old granddaughter, Paige, has a habit that got me thinking. It’s pretty common among kids: She sucks the index finger of her left hand while grasping the satiny edge of her baby blanket between the thumb and remaining fingers. Her right hand clutches another part of the ribbon edge in the exact place where she knows there is a hole in the binding and can slip her other thumb in and out. The blanket used to be lilac with a lavender satin binding. It’s now faded to a sickly, gray color with stains and holes that would make a sensitive person gag. Even with all its disgusting strings and shreds hanging off, to Paige it retains the mix of soft flannel and slippery satin she needs to comfort herself.

When part of our family was together in June, I watched her, thinking what a metaphor for life–hanging on to the shreds, trying to find some comfort in the fragments of life. Towards the end of our stay at the cabin, when everyone was ready to be done with vacation, Paige’s daddy had to take her on his lap to give her a scolding about some things she does regularly. He talked to her at length about not going on the dock without a life jacket, not hitting her brother with a stick, or not walking in the water with her shoes on, I don’t remember what all. I do remember she was holding her blankie and sucking steadily. When he was done speaking she took her finger out of her mouth and asked:“You talkin’ to me?”

Even while laughing, I was struck by my adult ability to do the same thing. I favor hanging onto the shreds of life and sucking madly rather than listening to God. I can’t believe how hard it is to find the exact combination of chocolate, books, coffee, not too much global news, a good sitcom, sleep, and controlled interactions with every significant other in order to make my life pleasant. It’s tough to pay attention to the ways God “talks” to me about the limits of my ability to “re-imagine” life. I can see myself barely lifting my eyes long enough to say, “You talkin’ to me?”

More than just star-gazing
We walk under the stars every night whether we notice them or not. What difference can they possibly make in this disparate world where refugees stream away from burned homes and someone sells me a sour batch of Ethiopian Yirgacheffe (get over it) that I paid good money for? Oddly enough, God can use the stars to “speak” to us and to offer some healing perspective when the world tempts us to distraction or despair. They are there to say, “Pay attention. I’m talking to you.”

So it happened that several summers ago I reconsidered the stars and planets, in a pretty unscientific way, granted.

Did you see the moon in July and part of August in 2008? I hope you noticed. There was a bright star that followed the moon across the southern sky dwarfing even the city lights. The star was so close and unblinking, I almost thought it was a giant space station just a few miles off the cross on top of St. Mary’s Hospital in Rocherster, Minnesota, moving steadily toward our back porch. It turned out to be the planet Jupiter, 365 million miles away—as close to earth as ever it can get. It gave me shivers, and I immediately thought: God!

You get the same feeling of observing some powerful alien universe if you’ve ever camped in a far valley or forest and lain down

NASA image of new stars being formed.

"It makes some grown persons cry..." (cc image courtesy NASA's Marshall Space Flight Center via flickr)

at night under the sky or swum in a lake when the stars were reflected all around, and it felt like you were floating in space with nothing to tether you to the mother ship. It makes some grown persons cry because they get a notion of how small they are and how vast the universe.

Thinking along this misty trail, I was reminded of Abraham and the Milky Way. In Genesis God told Abraham that his “offspring would be as numerous as the stars.”  I wondered, how could Abraham believe such a thing when he was old and childless? Even now it just seems so over the top. Back then, in about 2000 B.C., he would have looked up at night and seen the stars from the dark of the wilderness, a place where no one lived, a place of deep silence. Today there is nowhere on earth, and hasn’t been for centuries, where the stars are so bright, or as many as Abraham saw them. With towns and cities and gazillions of bulbs generating waves of light energy across the atmosphere of the earth, there is no place on the planet free of light pollution.

But from this pristine place in the deep desert where he watched millions of stars light years away and saw the distant dust of galaxies that look like space fog to the naked eye, and as the constellations swung in myriads across his retinas, Abraham listened and believed God. He believed God meant what he said and that this impossible thing of having a baby with Sarah would come true, and that through him all people would be blessed because he would become the ancestral father of Jesus, who would gather us all into one family with countless brothers and sisters and bring us home.

So I looked at Jupiter, and the fact that I could say “God!” signals (at the least) that I’ve taken my thumb out of my mouth long enough to get this: Thanks to Abraham, thanks to Christ, thanks to God. I am, I was, one of the stars Abraham saw. (Not literally. You know.)

And on one of those nights in August when the lights were so brilliantly on display, I remembered a piece of David’s poetry and thought, yes, I do catch a tiny drift of what he meant when he wrote:

The heavens declare the glory of God. The firmament showeth his handiwork. Day after day uttereth speech; night after night showeth knowledge. There is no speech nor language where their voice is not heard. Their line is gone out through all the earth, and their words to the end of the world….

and on it goes–Psalm 19. The rhythm of the old King James language seems right for these ancient words. Their power and mystery can lift the heart and eyes from dragging in the dirt. There is deep hope in knowing that this knowledge about creation is not exclusively imparted to some religious, white woman living in the U.S. No, not at all. I look up with, perhaps, billions of others whose language I don’t begin to understand, and know that any of us, anywhere, can hear and see something of the glory of God in the stars.

This is not meant to disengage me from the world, but rather, to give courage, and to see it in such a way that I am calmed, knowing that the God who made Jupiter reflect the sun at night also has a plan for a time, yet to come, when, he says:

I will save the lame and gather the outcast, and I will change their shame into praise…at that time I will gather you; at that time I will bring you home… (Zeph. 3:19, 20).

I can imagine a little bit of this just from how good it feels to be home today, sitting in the sun on the back steps, eating a fresh tomato, and watching the bumble bees pollinate my coral bells. Zephaniah’s words help cork my impatience while I wait for what seems like a long, long time to see what glory looks like. Jupiter helps the wait.

Of Monty Python and theodicy
I confess I like most of what Monty Python does, even though I sometimes wonder what kind of twisted person laughs at their stuff. (Me?) Not to go into all that here, but they did a movie called The Meaning of Life, which has moments of, well, vulgarity, but also moments of great brilliance. It includes a song written by Eric Idle–“The Galaxy Song.”

I appreciate it because Idle makes paradox work. He asks this huge question about the meaning of life by forcing you to consider the solar system and the unimaginable statistics of star distance and size. When perspective is established and you are smiling at the swingy melody and rhyming lyrics, he sticks it to you by offering no answer at all:

And remember when you’re feeling very small and insecure
how amazing and unlikely was your birth.
And pray there’s intelligent life somewhere up above,
cause there’s bugger aught down here on earth.

Idle is right. Life is meaningless, not to mention frightening, if there isn’t some higher intelligence running the cosmos. And if “It” is there, but doesn’t give an Arby’s French Dip about you, then there isn’t much reason to live. However, when I lie on the dock at a little lake in northern Wisconsin and watch the northern constellations come out, my problem is not that I doubt God’s existence, my trouble is why we suffer and what does God mean by it?

When God talks to Job about suffering he never explains why. Instead he tells Job to look at creation, and he sounds pretty scary stern about it. Among his questions to Job: “Can you bind the beautiful Pleiades (The Seven Sisters)? Can you loose the cords of Orion?” (Job 38:31). No. And, no.

Still, this is an interesting moment when God joins Job on earth and looks up with him from a human’s finite perspective. Think of it. From wherever God is, at any single point in the universe, or at all points at once, this configuration of stars could look like anything. What pattern do they form? It’s only from earth that they look like “Seven Sisters.” So to communicate with Job, God descends to earth, looks up, and calls it with the human eye. I love that.

Frederich Buechner reflects further on God’s non-answer to Job about suffering in Wishful Thinking: A Seeker’s ABC:

Maybe the reason God doesn’t explain to Job why terrible things happen is that he knows what Job needs isn’t an explanation. Suppose that God did explain. Suppose that God were to say to Job that the reason the cattle were stolen, the crops ruined, and the children killed was thus and so, spelling everything out right down to and including the case of boils. Job would have his explanation.

And then what?

Understanding in terms of the divine economy why his children had to die, Job would still have to face their empty chairs at breakfast every morning. Carrying in his pocket straight from the horse’s mouth a complete theological justification of his boils, he would still have to scratch and burn.

God doesn’t reveal his grand design. He reveals himself. He doesn’t show why things are as they are. He shows his face. And Job says, “I had heard of thee by the hearing of the ear, but now my eyes see thee.” Even covered with sores and ashes, he looks oddly like a man who has asked for a crust and been given the whole loaf.

Holding all things together

Stars above a country road.

"Through him all things were made." (cc image courtesy c@rljones via flickr)

I was surprised to see the new Christmas card our friend, Bonnie Liefer, designed this summer. We seemed to have been thinking along the same lines. Its subject is stars. She says:

“Twenty-three years ago, I looked out the window on a summer night in Colorado and I will never, ever forget what I saw. The sky was packed with stars. It was stunningly, achingly beautiful. I had never seen anything like it before and I’ve never seen anything like it since.

“Those stars are still there, even though I can’t see them in Pittsburgh. In the same way, there is an unseen spiritual reality that lies behind everything, even though we can’t see it. And behind that unseen world is Christ.”

In a world that can wear us down, the stars can restore our hearts to a proper upright position. They can be a reference point of hope reminding us that Christ, who suffered as a human, is also the one who is “before all things, and in Him all things hold together” (Colossians 1:17).


Margie Haack, with her husband, Denis, is a co-director of Ransom Fellowship, a ministry to help Christians engage postmodern culture and to live in ways that are both authentic to the Christian faith and winsome in their expression. The practice of hospitality has been central to their lives. They like to invite people into conversation through their writing, their home, and by giving unhurried time and a safe place where one can talk about anything, maybe eat some of Margie’s great chicken enchiladas, and then take a nap. Margie is editor of a quarterly newsletter, Notes From Toad Hall, and has a completed manuscript currently being shopped–The Exact Place–which is a memoir of growing up in an impoverished farm family in northern Minnesota, and of coming to faith. She has three children and eight grandchildren and blogs at www.toadsdrinkcoffee.blogspot.com.

Comments

  1. Dawn Merz says:

    Thanks so much, Margie. I am going to go for a walk under the stars tonight and even though I live on the edge of Sydney, I will look at the stars I can see and remind myself of the truths of which you have just written. How amazing, too, that God, Who sees all and knows all, made Himself God-With-Us and reveals Himself to us! Thanks for helping to open my eyes more and for reminding me to marvel even under the light-polluted sky.

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